no one sleeps yet...

today is such a weird day.

today is you-know-who's birthday, so i have kinda got that on the brain and it bothers me. It's normal, it's expected, but it's distracting.


so work (although going well) was a bit bunk today. There is this queen there who overreacts to things which makes things tough sometimes since i was starting to get confident in taking initiative with things myself, and now i feel a bit daunted. I also kinda bunged up a few things in front of the head honcho boss (even though they are debatable and my actual boss couldn't have cared less) but none-the-less....distractions.

this office thing is kinda weird. although i am still working in a visual environment i am finding my attention to visual details to be touch and go. Usually i think and remember things visually first and foremost, and to have that natural inclination be on the fritz is throwing me for a loop.

also, today on my ride home from work i swerved to avoid a car (i need a bell) and i hit a pot hole and popped my tire on my bike. UGHHHH. hopefully i will fix it tonight and if not i have a fancy day at work tomorrow so i was planning on taking transit anyways.

hmm

one thing i AM happy about today is that the new minus the bear cd is soooo fucking good and i am seeing them on monday!!! FUCK YESSSSS also, i am going to see "we will rock you" on jes's birthday with jes, patty and sharai!! talk about a hot bunch of babes on the town!

sounds like trouble...

i am really happy about my friendships i have in my life right now. there was a fritz recently but i am going to patch it (much like my tire) and make things picture perfect again. i love my second cup and O.G. friends. also, ms. BECKY's birthday is this weekend and i am so pumped for the cocktail party and for FUCKING NUIT BLANCHE! oh man....i honestly think it will be the best night ever.
no expectations though.

they only thing i can do to keep up this pace is to not expect anything of anyone. that way you're never dissapointed.



lets keep it goin' till the morning....

I would like to add to the previous post:

another thing i dislike about toronto:

-Random sketchy meth addicted ravers bursting into my living room.



yeah, I would that is pretty weak too.

life in t.o.

So we are pretty much settled in t.o. now (with exceptions being the plethora of house guests we have been bombarded with once the house was open for business...i love guests but it slowed down the process of home making.)

Some things I like about t.o.:

-seeing friends all the time and having people make me feel like me and my company is wanted and enjoyed. it feels like a little happy community

-How cultural everything is and how much there is to explore and see. I have been to so many fun FREE events since I have been here (cabbagetown arts and crafts show, vegetarian food fair, st. lawerence market, queen west art crawl, the riverdale farm etc....)

-my job (although when you work a 9-5 the weekends are never long enough) and how much it inspires me

-how close everything is.

-bike riding in fall weather

-my roommates and my cutesy apartment

-going to the hot box cafe with becky and jo and everyone

-there are adorable dogs EVERYWHERE!!


things that i don't like about t.o.:

-I never thought i would experience cyclist road rage but since everyone bikes here it is so annoying to be stuck behind slow cyclists, to have drivers opening their car doors completely disregarding the on-coming cyclists, and to get your tire stuck in a street car track.

-my annoying druggie raver super intendants who live beneath me

-not being able to see my oakville friends as much as i would like

-spending money too much because of all the wonderful shops and services everywhere you go

-not having any of the channels i actually watch on our basic cable (WTF???? No A&E, Showcase, food network or discovery?!? We dont even get fucking MUCH!???)


As you can see, the goods outweight the bads. I am excited to see minus the bear soon, but I don't know what i am going to do about thanksgiving since i don't have a dining area. hmmm....

Also, my room is almost set up courtesy of mr. spencer and his handy helperness. He installed me a custom desk/shelf thing for underneath my window and now i get to sit in front of my window and make crafts or write letters or internet it up like a nerdy mc.nerderson.

come visit me y'all...or message me for my mailing address so we can correspond!!!!!! xoxox

i chase my paper on...

HOLL-ER.

so i have been busy as shit and haven't had time for a real update in a long time. i don't have time either, but i will just tell you a few things:

Toronto is GREAT. i have a 9-5. monday to friday, room to grow within the company, benefits, pne hour paid lunch, and it is in my field. BOMB.

Since coming to toronto i have had the greatest people around me at all times. It is surreal to have such amazing, genuine people in my company all the time. I miss Jo and Jamie (these are two of those people i have been seeing lots of though...i am glad because not living together and having to knock on her door instead of walking right in is FUCKKKKED) but colleen and spencer are the most amazing roommates. Spencer is the handiest man i have ever known, and colleen is and will always be the loveliest girl in the world.

I have also been spending so much time with my internet girlfriend turned real-life soul mat becky, and the love of her life/my homie adam. He is assisting a photo shoot with paris hilton this week! WOAHHHH! we have been hanging out, going to the hot box cafe, going to st. lawerence market, watching tv, and just spending cutesy time together (also in conjunction with jo and jamie...cute!) being nice and fun.

My bff leo has visited me from oakville lots, and he even bought me a friendship hat! what a charmer! I also got a visit from the wonderful ms. lynn kane and her adorable friend suzann last night...wine and weed and patio conversation.

Scott came up for the weekend to go to the vegetarian food fair and so we could go see the animal collective (which we couldn't get into....booo). we walked all the way home from sneeky dees on friday which wasn't as bad as it sounds and the food fair of course was yesterday. Sarah kramer was adorable and i bought three rays of spelt muffins and soy jerky...yumz!!

today we are going to the cabbage town arts and craft show, american apparel, and then who knows what the day will bring. i got my hurr did yesterday and it cost me a million dollars but i am a "new woman" (miranda july shout out...i am reading her book "no one belongs here more than you" which is amazing and sexy.) so i look bomb digity.

tomorrow i get the internet for real and not just free signals so i will write an essay about my life. i wanna know how alexis and zane are doing because i haven't heard from them since they moved.


WORDDDDD.

forget it...

I have officially lost my faith in humanity.

how the fuck do I have such shitty luck???
Karma fucking owes me.
BIG TIME.

HOLLERRRRRRRR

yo, dude.

so many good quotes lately. I need to find my tape recorder and keep these things handy.

"Who do I have to smack around here to get some proper keifer?!"
(me to a customer on my last day, regarding their concerns for the lack of red-label keifer)

"We're the wings!!!"
(tanja when we were posing for our totem pole picture)

"Yo, just tape a piece of pepperoni on my zit with a bandaid"
(me, to clayton and jo when talking about harvesting my zit)

"She has the pepperoni in her front pocket....!"
(lynn, talking about tanja who had a deli bag of sliced pepperoni to snack on while working)

oh.....good times.

So, I finished my run at the OG with quite the party bender. At school, it was the same way: it's almost done, and suddenly we're all best friends! why now!? why not sooner!? oh yeah, because the drama ensues. dang. Anyways that first night at jess's/sharais definitly was the highlight of my summer thus far, although i would be a liar to say i didn't love it all. I am excited to see these kids when i get back and to have one last hurrah! before the summer ends.

BUT FOR NOWWWWWW

I AM IN HALIFAXXXXX

"Isn't it ironic, you still have ideals....?"

BOY OH BOY!

This apartment hunt is turning out to be a real struggle. It is so fucking cut-throat in toronto! I am not sure if i am prepared for that town!
uuuugh

anyways, time will tell. Right now it is tough because I can't get into toronto asap when an ad is posted because well, I am in oakville. Usually when i call to see something I get: "Oh, it'll be gone by then...i've already had ______ number of calls."

I am slowly getting less selective. I think at this point i will even live in a building. I was hoping not to have to move in a year, and that we would find a comfy place right away, but that is doubtful at this point, but i will stay positive. Moving sucks, i was hoping to avoid multiple moves within the next few years but do whatcha gotta do, right?

anyways, just no basements. After being the only one home when my house burnt down I would feel too confined in a basement.

I have been riding my bike lots, seeing old friends (some things never change....) and feeling healthier. (it feels amazing to think that..thank you, vitamins!)
also, there are a few potential jobs. I don't want to jinx it so I will leave it at that.

Time to continue my 9-hr day work bender...

8 DAYS TILL HALIFAX!!!!!
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